Are you asking:
Why did I have to go through all these bad times?
Why are all these bad things happening to me?
Why am I doing all these bad things?
Jesus has the answer:
Because you are over loaded – with sin, with anger, with unbelief, with self-centredness – that’s why.
Because you need supernatural help – from Christ – to set you free and give you a new heart and new life, if you’re willing.
Give Christ a chance and you’re free – Now!
(18) The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he has sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,